This is a short film I made in collaboration with Tommy Wu. I made it to go with the book I created, called IMperfection, in which I explore female sexuality, and how the concept of beauty can impact on women’s perception of sexuality. Images of beauty promote the message that “a woman in her natural state is incomplete, imperfect, and that perfection is just a product, or brand away.” (I use “I” because i can only ever speak for myself) When I do not accept myself for who i naturally am, I begin to seek acceptance from others, I have then given my power away. My thoughts, emotions and actions are dependent on the opinions of others. I then begin to seek desirability, instead of learning how to desire for myself. I then become a blank slate for someone else to mould. From a young age men are taught to desire and seek for themselves, girls are taught how to be desirable and how to be sought after. There is always a choice and I want to wipe the slate clean and choose to become the woman I want to be, not the woman i am excepted to be.
I suffer with scoliosis, a spinal deformity. I was diagnosed at 13, and since then it has got progressively worse. At first I saw my “imperfection” as something that would hold me back (no pun intended lol) but after a lot of self exploration I have come to see my scoliosis as the very thing that makes me perfect for my particular situation and purpose. It has forced me to become a stronger person and question things, i may not have questioned otherwise. If we see imperfections and challenges in this way we can empower ourselves.<p><a href=”http://vimeo.com/44799254″>Imperfection</a> from <a href=”http://vimeo.com/user12042929″>Ayesha Jones</a> on <a href=”http://vimeo.com”>Vimeo</a>.</p>